Late again, per usual! I'm at 210 again, so another gain. This is no less irritating now than it was five months ago. The worst part is that I know I can lose this weight, as I've done it before. I also know I can lose this because I used to be heavier. But it doesn't seem to want to keep me at less than 210. I don't know what I'm doing wrong...
Yesterday, I hung out with a friend I hadn't seen since high school almost three years ago. We had a lot of fun, doing completely irrational things like going around the BJ's wholesale store and giggling in wonderment at all the food. I hadn't realized just how much I'd missed her until I spent time with her again.
The most unexpected part of the day, though, was that she commented on how good I looked now. I asked her what she meant by that, since I was confused. All I was wearing was a crappy pair of jeans and a tank top, so it couldn't be my clothing. She told me it was obvious I had lost a lot of weight and that frankly, I was pretty fat in high school (because, oh god, I was).
That made my week, along with a lot of other stuff that we ended up doing around town.
I know I can lose the rest of this weight. I know it. And I'll do it. I don't want to be fat anymore and I don't even want to be kind of fat. I want to lose this weight and I will.
And I think I'll try to make it more fun than I have up until now.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
So, I didn't update on time this week. Go figure!
It's not that I forgot, I just gave myself a lot of stuff to do. Way too much to do and it turned out that I ended up not updating my blog until a few days later.
So, where am I at?
208.5lbs. It's a loss, that's for sure. I'm still not keeping my hopes up until it becomes 205 or lower. This isn't me being too hard on myself, I just know my body and that it doesn't like to agree with me. I keep yo-yoing between 206-211 and it's starting to get a little disheartening. Hopefully, the walking I've been doing lately will help!
It's not that I forgot, I just gave myself a lot of stuff to do. Way too much to do and it turned out that I ended up not updating my blog until a few days later.
So, where am I at?
208.5lbs. It's a loss, that's for sure. I'm still not keeping my hopes up until it becomes 205 or lower. This isn't me being too hard on myself, I just know my body and that it doesn't like to agree with me. I keep yo-yoing between 206-211 and it's starting to get a little disheartening. Hopefully, the walking I've been doing lately will help!
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Alright then~
I managed not to forget this week! Go me!
I don't think I've gotten very far in progressing with my exercise or my eating. My eating is so-so. I need to eat more than twice a day, which is my biggest problem. Sometimes I don't even manage that. It's mainly because my sleeping schedule is just so out of whack thanks to my being unemployed and not having much to do in the ways of needing to get up early.
I walked around a lot yesterday, though it hadn't been planned. We got locked on the other side of a mall from my car and I had to walk around the whole building to get back to it, because they wouldn't let us taking the normal exit that would have gotten us to just needing to walk to the back of the lot. Instead, I had to walk through the parking lots of about four or five major stores and the mall. It wasn't bad, as it was nice outside, but it was still irritating seeing as I hadn't really been wanting to do that. I prefer my walks to be during the day, too, and not in a dark parking lot. Of course, there were lights and I wasn't alone, but still.
I did pass by the door of an abandoned store there. THe doors, which apparently had been automatic at some point, were completely cracked. There was a glass awning right before them that had several major cracks, but no holes, in it and it was held up by these rusted out pillars. It had lights that I'm sure worked at one point. Of ten, only one wasn't smashed.
It makes my head turn and turn and turn. Hopefully I can make something of this. Hopefully.
Anyhow. Now to the important part, right?
I'm at 210. Which means I stayed exactly the same. I didn't lose anything, but I didn't gain, either. So all is good in my book for now. My measurements are also still exactly the same. Nothing exciting to report today, but also nothing depressing to report, either.
Until next time, guys!
I don't think I've gotten very far in progressing with my exercise or my eating. My eating is so-so. I need to eat more than twice a day, which is my biggest problem. Sometimes I don't even manage that. It's mainly because my sleeping schedule is just so out of whack thanks to my being unemployed and not having much to do in the ways of needing to get up early.
I walked around a lot yesterday, though it hadn't been planned. We got locked on the other side of a mall from my car and I had to walk around the whole building to get back to it, because they wouldn't let us taking the normal exit that would have gotten us to just needing to walk to the back of the lot. Instead, I had to walk through the parking lots of about four or five major stores and the mall. It wasn't bad, as it was nice outside, but it was still irritating seeing as I hadn't really been wanting to do that. I prefer my walks to be during the day, too, and not in a dark parking lot. Of course, there were lights and I wasn't alone, but still.
I did pass by the door of an abandoned store there. THe doors, which apparently had been automatic at some point, were completely cracked. There was a glass awning right before them that had several major cracks, but no holes, in it and it was held up by these rusted out pillars. It had lights that I'm sure worked at one point. Of ten, only one wasn't smashed.
It makes my head turn and turn and turn. Hopefully I can make something of this. Hopefully.
Anyhow. Now to the important part, right?
I'm at 210. Which means I stayed exactly the same. I didn't lose anything, but I didn't gain, either. So all is good in my book for now. My measurements are also still exactly the same. Nothing exciting to report today, but also nothing depressing to report, either.
Until next time, guys!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Doh!
I didn't forget, I swear! Okay. I did. But I didn't fall off the wagon. I did still weigh myself and all that good stuff.
I weighed in at 210 pounds last Saturday, which means I lost a pound from my previous weigh in! Hooray! I'm not convinced of this yet, as I tend to lose and gain the same few pounds over and over, so until I get under that precious 205 mark right now, I'm going to be vary wary of what my scale says.
I've been eating a lot better recently. I gave up eating the fries and have been eating a lot of rice and veggies lately. I've also been going crazy over this fat free yogurt at the market. It's really delicious and I can get it in a bunch of different flavors, which makes me really happy. It's La Yogurt and if you can get a hold of it, then go for it! I've been averaging about two of them a day, which is surprising for me.
It's been sooo hot lately, but I've been keeping up with my DDR playing. I'm unemployed, so currently I don't go to a gym. Until I get a job, I'm going to be sticking to things I can do in the comfort of my air conditioned game room, which means DDR and work out videos. At least I'm not just sitting around and doing nothing all day. Eating better helps, but I won't get far without moving around.
My measurements this week are as follows:
Waist: 41
Hips: 51
Thigh: 23
Upper Arm: 11
Ribcage: 39.5
Bust: 44
I guess I did measure correctly, as my waist is still where it was last week, and I lost half an inch on my hips. My bust also went down a little.
I'll make sure to update again soon on what I've been eating and doing to exercise, as long as it's interesting and all. I don't want to bore my one or two readers all that much.
I weighed in at 210 pounds last Saturday, which means I lost a pound from my previous weigh in! Hooray! I'm not convinced of this yet, as I tend to lose and gain the same few pounds over and over, so until I get under that precious 205 mark right now, I'm going to be vary wary of what my scale says.
I've been eating a lot better recently. I gave up eating the fries and have been eating a lot of rice and veggies lately. I've also been going crazy over this fat free yogurt at the market. It's really delicious and I can get it in a bunch of different flavors, which makes me really happy. It's La Yogurt and if you can get a hold of it, then go for it! I've been averaging about two of them a day, which is surprising for me.
It's been sooo hot lately, but I've been keeping up with my DDR playing. I'm unemployed, so currently I don't go to a gym. Until I get a job, I'm going to be sticking to things I can do in the comfort of my air conditioned game room, which means DDR and work out videos. At least I'm not just sitting around and doing nothing all day. Eating better helps, but I won't get far without moving around.
My measurements this week are as follows:
Waist: 41
Hips: 51
Thigh: 23
Upper Arm: 11
Ribcage: 39.5
Bust: 44
I guess I did measure correctly, as my waist is still where it was last week, and I lost half an inch on my hips. My bust also went down a little.
I'll make sure to update again soon on what I've been eating and doing to exercise, as long as it's interesting and all. I don't want to bore my one or two readers all that much.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Weigh in number one
So. Saturday is my weigh in day. Which means I weighed in today.
I gained a pound and a half, which puts me at 211lbs.
yeah, I'm disappointed. But I'm not surprised, which is what makes it worse. I probably won't do much better next Saturday, considering I've been eating a lot of my comfort foods. Gravy fries and scones are very prevalent right now. I'm trying not to, but the hard part is actually stopping.
I'm bummed, but what can I do about it NOW other than just try harder tomorrow? Not much of anything. And I refuse to wallow.
My measurements are:
Waist:41
Hips: 51.5
Neck: 13
Thigh: 23
Calf: 16
Upper Arm: 11
Ribcage: 39.5
Bust: 45
Pretty much the same. But it seems I went down an inch in my waist? This doesn't seem right. I don't think I'm measuring properly.
I gained a pound and a half, which puts me at 211lbs.
yeah, I'm disappointed. But I'm not surprised, which is what makes it worse. I probably won't do much better next Saturday, considering I've been eating a lot of my comfort foods. Gravy fries and scones are very prevalent right now. I'm trying not to, but the hard part is actually stopping.
I'm bummed, but what can I do about it NOW other than just try harder tomorrow? Not much of anything. And I refuse to wallow.
My measurements are:
Waist:41
Hips: 51.5
Neck: 13
Thigh: 23
Calf: 16
Upper Arm: 11
Ribcage: 39.5
Bust: 45
Pretty much the same. But it seems I went down an inch in my waist? This doesn't seem right. I don't think I'm measuring properly.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Update on Brummel & Brown
I posted before about how Brummel & Brown spreads are tasty and pretty low cal in comparison to a lot of other things you could be slathering all over bread. My one concern was that they were made with hydrogenated oils. Well, that's no longer a concern! Their ingredients lists currently no longer have hydrogenated oils in them! Once I get a job, I'm going to be buying a tub of the flavored and of the plain and replacing my normal spreads with them.
On the subject of putting things on toast, Peanut Butter & Co ( Http://www.ilovepeanutbutter.com ) release these fantastic flavored peanut butters. They're not full of really awful things and they're not that bad for you in moderation. And because the flavors are so intense, I have no problem settling for their single serving of 2 tbls. My favorites are the Dark Chocolate Dream and the Mighty Maple. Both go pretty great with apples and on toast. The Dark Chocolate is really fantastic on strawberries. Currently we get them on discount around my house because our local Ocean State Job Lot sells them for about $3 a pop. They're normally about $4 or $5 each. I also picked up some no sugar added preserves and jams to go with them.
Also, one of my favorite breakfasts (again speaking of toast!) is a fried egg, cooked over medium, spread over a piece of toast and then topped with another piece of toast. Pretty awesome, really! Especially if you put a slice or two of bacon in there. Very, very filling and satisfying.
On the subject of putting things on toast, Peanut Butter & Co ( Http://www.ilovepeanutbutter.com ) release these fantastic flavored peanut butters. They're not full of really awful things and they're not that bad for you in moderation. And because the flavors are so intense, I have no problem settling for their single serving of 2 tbls. My favorites are the Dark Chocolate Dream and the Mighty Maple. Both go pretty great with apples and on toast. The Dark Chocolate is really fantastic on strawberries. Currently we get them on discount around my house because our local Ocean State Job Lot sells them for about $3 a pop. They're normally about $4 or $5 each. I also picked up some no sugar added preserves and jams to go with them.
Also, one of my favorite breakfasts (again speaking of toast!) is a fried egg, cooked over medium, spread over a piece of toast and then topped with another piece of toast. Pretty awesome, really! Especially if you put a slice or two of bacon in there. Very, very filling and satisfying.
This has got to end!
It's been months, yet again, since I last posted in this damned blog! I have to stop neglecting this because when I neglect this blog, I neglect myself. I'm not holding myself accountable for anything at the moment because I just keep sitting around and waiting for it all to kick me into gear and for me to realize that I should do something. As if I didn't already know I have to DO SOMETHING.
I'll make myself post here at least once a week, but I'm going to try and aim for more. The more I do, the more I'll think about what it is I'm doing here and where I'm going. This will focus mainly on my trying to lose weight, but I'll also talk about other things in my life. Because ultimately, the others things that affect my mood end up affecting my ability to 'care' about losing weight. Hopefully, I won't stop caring ever again, at least not for longer than a period of a day, at any rate.
So. Current measurements and weight and BMI:
WEIGHT: 209.5
BMI: 38.3
MEASUREMENTS (in inches):
Waist:42
Hips: 51.5
Neck: 13
Thigh: 23
Calf: 16
Upper Arm: 11
Ribcage: 40
Bust: 45
List of goals and how I plan on rewarding myself:
WEIGHT GOALS (and rewards for reaching each)[Dates achieved]:
Get to 205lbs (Spend a whole day just playing sit down video games)[]
Get to 200lbs (Spend a whole day just drawing and or reading by myself)[]
Get to 195lbs (McDonald's Sundae, plain.)[] (I'm fully aware that I shouldn't reward myself with food, but I never get these and I figured the 150 calorie cup wouldn't fucking hurt me)
Get to 190lbs (DDR Mat)[]
Get to 185lbs (New Tarot deck)[]
Get to 180lbs (Samanosuke and Kaede)[]
Get to 175lbs (Buy a nice new sketchbook)[]
Get to 170lbs (Onimusha controller)[]
Get to 165lbs (Spend a whole day just playing Onimusha)[]
Get to 160lbs (no longer obese) (Bodyline Spree)[]
Get to 155lbs (New GBASP and some games)[]
Get to 150lbs (Avon spree)[]
Get to 145lbs (Bobobie purchase)[]
Get to 140lbs (new PS2 or Wii game or three CDs of choice)[]
Get to 135lbs(no longer overweight) (A small set of Prismacolor markers or pencils or pens)[]
Get to 130lbs (PSP)[]
Get to 125lbs (Angelic Pretty purchase through Celga)[]
Get to 120lbs (Iplehouse purchase)[]
Get to 115lbs (Dollmore purchase)[]
Get to 110lbs GOAL (QutieLand purchase)[]
I'll make myself post here at least once a week, but I'm going to try and aim for more. The more I do, the more I'll think about what it is I'm doing here and where I'm going. This will focus mainly on my trying to lose weight, but I'll also talk about other things in my life. Because ultimately, the others things that affect my mood end up affecting my ability to 'care' about losing weight. Hopefully, I won't stop caring ever again, at least not for longer than a period of a day, at any rate.
So. Current measurements and weight and BMI:
WEIGHT: 209.5
BMI: 38.3
MEASUREMENTS (in inches):
Waist:42
Hips: 51.5
Neck: 13
Thigh: 23
Calf: 16
Upper Arm: 11
Ribcage: 40
Bust: 45
List of goals and how I plan on rewarding myself:
WEIGHT GOALS (and rewards for reaching each)[Dates achieved]:
Get to 205lbs (Spend a whole day just playing sit down video games)[]
Get to 200lbs (Spend a whole day just drawing and or reading by myself)[]
Get to 195lbs (McDonald's Sundae, plain.)[] (I'm fully aware that I shouldn't reward myself with food, but I never get these and I figured the 150 calorie cup wouldn't fucking hurt me)
Get to 190lbs (DDR Mat)[]
Get to 185lbs (New Tarot deck)[]
Get to 180lbs (Samanosuke and Kaede)[]
Get to 175lbs (Buy a nice new sketchbook)[]
Get to 170lbs (Onimusha controller)[]
Get to 165lbs (Spend a whole day just playing Onimusha)[]
Get to 160lbs (no longer obese) (Bodyline Spree)[]
Get to 155lbs (New GBASP and some games)[]
Get to 150lbs (Avon spree)[]
Get to 145lbs (Bobobie purchase)[]
Get to 140lbs (new PS2 or Wii game or three CDs of choice)[]
Get to 135lbs(no longer overweight) (A small set of Prismacolor markers or pencils or pens)[]
Get to 130lbs (PSP)[]
Get to 125lbs (Angelic Pretty purchase through Celga)[]
Get to 120lbs (Iplehouse purchase)[]
Get to 115lbs (Dollmore purchase)[]
Get to 110lbs GOAL (QutieLand purchase)[]
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I suck.
I kind of forgot this blog existed, but I have still be posting things on my SparkPeople.
I did gain back all of the weight I lost, and then some, because I frankly fell off the wagon and stopped caring for a month or two. Various reasons (including my bi-polar disorder) got in the way of my caring anymore and I know that isn't good, but it happened and there isn't anything I can do to change that.
I'll just have to work a bit harder now.
I'll start posting more regularly, at least once a week, from now on. I hope. Haha.
I did gain back all of the weight I lost, and then some, because I frankly fell off the wagon and stopped caring for a month or two. Various reasons (including my bi-polar disorder) got in the way of my caring anymore and I know that isn't good, but it happened and there isn't anything I can do to change that.
I'll just have to work a bit harder now.
I'll start posting more regularly, at least once a week, from now on. I hope. Haha.
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