Late again, per usual! I'm at 210 again, so another gain. This is no less irritating now than it was five months ago. The worst part is that I know I can lose this weight, as I've done it before. I also know I can lose this because I used to be heavier. But it doesn't seem to want to keep me at less than 210. I don't know what I'm doing wrong...

Yesterday, I hung out with a friend I hadn't seen since high school almost three years ago. We had a lot of fun, doing completely irrational things like going around the BJ's wholesale store and giggling in wonderment at all the food. I hadn't realized just how much I'd missed her until I spent time with her again.

The most unexpected part of the day, though, was that she commented on how good I looked now. I asked her what she meant by that, since I was confused. All I was wearing was a crappy pair of jeans and a tank top, so it couldn't be my clothing. She told me it was obvious I had lost a lot of weight and that frankly, I was pretty fat in high school (because, oh god, I was).

That made my week, along with a lot of other stuff that we ended up doing around town.

I know I can lose the rest of this weight. I know it. And I'll do it. I don't want to be fat anymore and I don't even want to be kind of fat. I want to lose this weight and I will.

And I think I'll try to make it more fun than I have up until now.