Oh my god I am so ungodly ill right now. I have to work a few hours today, but then I'm just going to come home and get back to sleep. I work a pretty long and assed shift tomorrow, so hopefully I'm feeling a lot better after resting a whole bunch today. I slept a lot yesterday, since they sent me home from work for pukuing my guts out, but I don't think it was quite enough. I can't call in because, I can't. They really need me. So, I'm gonna suffer through. I'm not in the pukey mood right now, so hopefully it stays that way. It's cold out and I'm not looking forward to walking there and home, but I'll just make the best of it.

So I weighed myself yesterday, just to see where I was at. I was feeling much better, so I figured it was safe enough to try weighing myself, right? I guess it's a good thing I did, because I came in at 208lbs. That's a loss of a pound and a half from my last weigh in.

I finally have everyhting I need to start going to the gym- pants, two different tops, sneakers, a water bottle, and a new MP3 player (Vicious got lost while I decided I needed him no longer and he's hiding in my room somewhere). I need new headphones because the ones that were clearanced that I bought...suck. A lot. And the ones that came with the player suck. A lot. Anyway, I'm crocheting up a gym bag so I can put everything in my bag and take it with me to the gym. It should be done within the next few days and then I'll get me that membership. It'll be awesome.

So, I didn't weigh in yesterday or today. I didn't forget, I'll be honest, I just didn't want to. I've been depressed for a few days and I knew if I didn't have anything other than a decent loss, it would make it a lot worse. I will certainly be posting my weigh in next week if I'm feeling up to it.

So, this week's weigh-in is a day early mostly because I highly doubt I'm going to want to do much of anything tomorrow.

I weighed in at 209.5 today, which is awesome! That's a loss of a pound and a half.

I'm working until about one or two in the morning today, so I'm likely going to be practically dead tomorrow when I get home. Hopefully I can continue this good streak, though, and lose some more weight this coming week.

I need a car. I know walking is good for me. I know that. But I'm not walking in the dark, I'm not working after a ten hour shift and I don't expect Mik to walk home from about ten miles away.

Hopefully after I get some bills paid off, I can buy a car and then I can save up for a house. Oh yeah, a house. Can't get that without the car, though. I doubt dad would continue to let me borrow his if I didn't live with him anymore.

So, I weighed in today at 211lbs. That means I lost half a pound from last week. Not a lot to lose, but at least it's not a gain! And it's better than staying the same.

Went to an Indian restaurant today and it was awesome. It was half celebration for my getting a job, and half pre-concert meal for Mik and Nate. They went on without me because, well, I didn't want to go. Haha.

Anyway, my Bodyline order came in yesterday. Bodyline is a Japanese lolita company thats ells good to fantastic quality lolita clothing for decent prices. I got a pair of shoes, socks, a dress, bloomers, and a blouse. Mik got some breeches, a hat, and two blouses. And this is what we had to say:

Bodyline, why do you lie about your sizes? Mik ordered her breeches in the size that was slightly too big for her. The breeches are too tight, one of them unwearable until she loses a little bit of weight. The shoes I got, despite being in my size, were really tight. I'm going to try and break them in, but if that doesn't work, I'm going to sell them. The dress that was supposed to fit since the measurements matched up...doesn't. Can't quite zip that thing. The petticoat/underskirt it came with DOES fit, however. The socks NOT A CHANCE. If you have slightly bigger than average calves, their socks will not fit. Period. The bloomers would fit me if my hips weren't so huge. The blouses we got fit us perfectly.

So, there you go. If you order from Bodyline, keep that in mind. The clothing was all really good quality, the shoes look fantastic, and it was all actually a lot nicer in person than on the site.

I cannot believe how exhausted I am from working. I've only worked two days this week so far and already clocked in sixteen hours, and I work again on Sunday for another eight hours. I am full time, so after my training is done, I'll be getting minimum of 35 hours a week (my manager told me he'd get me as close to 40 as he possibly could). Because I hurt so bad and I'm just so tired after work, though, I don't walk home. I call my dad and beg him to take me home.  I do walk to work and I am on my feet literally the whole time, so I don't think this makes me lazy. Haha.

These days have entirely screwed up my eating schedule, though. I used to actually eat breakfast for a while. I quit entirely since I started working. Why? Because I've been waking up at 6AM to make it to work wide awake and dressed by 8AM. I can't eat that early in morning. In fact, my stomach doesn't accept the idea of eating until about 9am or 10am.

So. I am sitting here, eating the everloving crap out of a sandwich because I haven't had anything but tea and a Sierra Mist today. I am starving and broken, but completely happy to have a job.

On the Special K Challenge

So, I started saying this in the comments, but it was getting out of hand. So here we go:

On the subject of the Special K challenge, it's you have two Special K meals (cereal, meal bar, etc) and one 'real' meal (IE- low calorie, healthy food. They have suggestions, I'm making my own). And then two healthy snakcs, they suggest their own of course. I'm planning on having cereal twice, because I need the calcium, for breakfast and for lunch. I was going to make my snacks either fruit, vegetables and hummus, or the crackers (maybe with hummus). My dinners were going to be whatever healthy fare I could scrounge up.

For as far as how I figure it works is: cereal is filling, and if you get the right kind of cereal, doesn't pack too many calories for the good nutrients. Because most of what you're eating is cereal, meal bars and protein waters, and then a healthy dinner, you end up losing weight. The cereal creats a huge calorie deficiency, which is good if you've been struggling to stay within your calorie limit and feeling full. You need a deficiency of 3,500 calories per week to lose one pound per week.

Of course, this isn't something you should do all the time. A lot of people use these kind of techniques and others as a jump start into a healthier lifestyle. Eating the cereal lets you get used to smaller portions without feeling hungry all the time, the protein waters and the bars do the same. This is something you can do without any kind of brand loyalty. Any healthy cereal you enjoy would work just fine instead of the Special K, and healthy granola or meal bars you enjoy could also replace theirs. I'm specifically doing this because I love the cereal personally and the snacks.

After the two weeks are up, your body's becomed used to eating that smaller amount of calories (hope you're tracking and making sure you're staying within your suggested limit, though~! Being under is a bad idea, jsut as much as being over), you can go back to eating more than just cereal for your other two meals a day. You need less to stay full and content and you can expand into other foods you enjoy.

I don't say thing from experience with this plan myself, I say thing from experience with how I've noticed other people losing weight, or just from what little I know about nutrition and how bodies work. I'm not an expert or anything, nor am I trained in any of this, but certain things have been tried and proven, and this is one of them. Again, this isn't something you should do allt he time, unless you really love cereal all that much or something.

I'm thinking I should just move my weigh in day to Sunday, seeing as I always get too busy on Saturday to do much of anything in the online world.

Anyhow, I weighed in at 211.5 today. That's a gain of a pound and a half. THat's okay by mue. Weight fluctuations, mayb e I did something a little bit wrong that I shouldn't have, maybe I didn't walk enough, drink enough water. Etc. It's alright and I can get over it and do better this week.

Now that I have a job, the roommate and I were looking at gyms to join. We found a really fantastic one that is not only huge, offers lots of nice classes, is open all the time, has amazing equipment AND a really nice staff...But is super afforadable! So, once I get paid and I can afford some gym clothes and the membership fee, I'll be signing up and going!

My new job iiis..Line cook! Yep, I'm cooking for a living, at a real restaurant now. I'm really, really excited and so far I like most of the people there. I also like I'm allowed to dye my hair whatever color I want and get tattoos, something that wasn't allowed at my old job. I held off on dying my hair until I got a new job, just to make sure I could actually GET a job and to make sure it was alright with the company or the owner.

The place is within walking distance, so yep. You got it. I walk to work everyday. It's a mile there and a mile back, if I walk back. I won't be walking back after sunset and I won't be walking in the dead of winter, I hope.

Also, I was considering doing that Special K challenge thing. I'm not sure I'm expecting it to do much of anything for me, really. I don't have high hopes for it. But I do love the cereal and the bars, and I would like an excuse to eat that cereal all the time. My roommate said she'd chip in for the prices of everything if she could share the cereal; she loves it, too.

Tha's all from me!~