Oops!

Two days late, but here I am. I played three rounds of DDR on Saturday. Three! THREE! When was the last time I did that? A long, long time ago.


Sunday was uneventful, I worked. It was a job. Ahaha. I stayed in bed all day after work because I hurt so badly.

I did weigh in today, a bit late, but yes. I came in at...wait for iiiit...

204.5

YES. I lost a pound and a half! A POUND AND A HALF! I'm under the 205 mark! I'm so happy!

I hope to play more DDR tomorrow, on my day off.

Twice in a row!

Well, here we go. I posted last week and I'm posting again this week! I came in at 206lbs, which is half a pound down from last week. Not much of a change, but it's down and not up.

I'm trying really hard not to just comfort eat. I hope I don't give into that this week. One of my snakes died last night and we're not entirely sure why, seeing as the other one is completely fine. Nonetheless, it's really depressing. We've had them for two years now.

I totaled four and a quarter miles walked today to and from work. It would have been five had I actually walked the whole way to work the other day, but my sister saw me walking and picked me up.

Slowly getting some room in the living room, so hopefully we can get a Gazelle and get it all nice and set up. Then I won't really have to worry so much about exercise.

So, counting calories doesn't really work for me, it seems. It just ends up depressing me because when I meet my calories goals, I don't meet my nutritional goals in other ways. When I meet those, I either go way under or way over my calories and then I just get discouraged. I'm continuing to journal, not noting any of these things, just putting down what I'm eating, how much, and how often I eat. This is working pretty well.  I noticed I drink a bit too much soda, so I cut that down with some tea and flavored waters. I noticed I wasn't getting enough fruits or vegetables, so I started sneaking them in. Also, I've been eating WAY too much meat! So I started cutting down on that. When I just look at calories or nutrients by themselves, I don't care what it is I'm eating, as long as I meet those numbers. And that just doesn't work for me. It's why I yo-yo'd so much, I think, these past few months. And since I am an emotional eater and I have slight issues with binging and overeating, that wasn't at all good for me.

I've been sprucing up my room lately, so hopefully I'll have room to put my desk in soon. I might just break down and buy a new desk, though, since that one's so monstrously huge and I can't quite find the hardware for it., It's all in a labeled bag in the storage room, but...the storage room's a bit unorganized. Plus, as stated, that desk is just too big for my room. What I'm likely going to end up doing is buying a very small computer workstation and then buying a crafting table. That way I won't have room to collect cups of any sort on my desk and my crafting supplies will have a place and a home. I also need a smaller bed. This is all likely going to be bought before I fork over the cash for a new bike. I was going to get a bike instead of a car for now since work isn't that far away and neither is anything else I'd like to get to during the day when dad's at work. However, it's all farther than I'd like to walk. Walking just takes so long! It's not that it's tiring, it just takes forever for me to get to my destination. 

Anyhoo, I will make sure I come back next Saturday, at the least, and give an update on my weight.

Here are my updated measurements:
Bust 41inch
Waist 40.5inch
Hip 49inch

The numbers went up a bit since my last measurements posted, I'm sure, but they're lower than the last time I took them myself, which was about half a month to a month ago. What's weird is that my waist and bust are starting to become the same size! How did that happen? Anyway, at least my hips are going down in size, which is the hardest part of me to fit.

Gosh...

Things have been tiring lately. Really tiring. I haven't posted in so long due to the fact that, well, I got ate by my job.

My hours doubled recently and I've been working my butt off, constantly. Add to that a few health problems flaring up, and I've just been too tired to post much. Or at all.

My eating habits have been sporadic at best, thanks to getting up too early, getting home too late, and having a bunch of other things to do once I get home. I also get no break at work, so I don't have any chance to eat during my work day.

I haven't been to the gym, even though I went and bought new gym pants. It's not so much I'm too tired, but I have issues with joint pain. Very severe joint paint issues. I end up crippled in bed after a 10+ hour work day. I'm not in much of a mood to even get up and go eat much less get up and go to the gym.

Despite all this, I did weigh myself this morning and I'm not nearly as heavy as I would have expected. I came in at 206.5lbs today. Sure, that's not much progress from my last post or even the posts before that, but it is some progress in quotes. Hopefully now that I'm feeling better (some new shoes plus some very expensive insoles have been cutting down the pain in my hips and knees), I can get my butt to the gym more often. If not, then I think I'm going to be investing in one of those home elliptical machines for various reasons. Maybe a Gazelle. They're inexpensive and they work the same way. Plus, then I can park myself in front of the TV and watch cartoons while I exercise. That sounds pretty good. And if I get too tired/feel too much pain, I can just fall back into the couch.

This actually sounds like a pretty good idea. I think I may be doing this as soon as I can find room in the living room and get myself $100.

I'm hoping to start posting more frequently now that I've told my boss I refuse to take any extra days on top of my normal schedule (which is already close to 40 hours as is) anymore. They were just wrecking my body. Overtime isn't worth it when I can't even get out of bed after I get home and all I do is curl up and cry.

On a good note, all this work means I should qualify for insurance through my employer soon. That means I can go and get this pain thing checked out and figured out. Hopefully it's nothing too serious and it's something I can get taken care of pretty easily.

I have been keeping a food journal, on paper, despite not logging into my Spark People very often or logging onto this blog. While I haven't really been keeping track of calories, I have been keeping track of exactly what I eat and making sure I start eating more vegetarian meals (I eat too much meat) and fewer sauces. Fruit has also become my main snack over Yan Yan (these cookie biscuit sticks you dip into flavored cream).

Confession Time

It's been quiet around here lately. Why is that? Because I kind of suck a lot.

so yeah, not the best way to start off the first post in almost a month. And not a great way to get the positive feelings going. But here's a series of confessions for you:
-I haven't been to the gym since I last posted, I don't think.
-I haven't been eating so great since I last posted, I don't think.
-I haven't been feeling so great.
-I'm sure I've gained weight.

I haven't gotten to the gym thanks to a series of excuses; I'm tired, I don't feel like it, I'm exhausted, I worked today, I work tomorrow, I work early, I haven't slept, I can't find my pants (but in truth, I never looked for them, either). I haven't eaten very well...much for those same excuses, just nix the pants part.

I've been depressed partially because of the lack of exercise and care for my health, partially because I've been in a lot of pain (see that whole lack of gym visits part), partially because of work and partially because I have problems controlling my emotions.

It just seems like everything's gone wrong lately and that I can't doa nything to get it back on track. Tomorow after work though, I'm going to look for my pants. And I'm going to the gym.

Today, I'll wallow. I'll do whatever it is that I think I need to make myself feel better. Frankly, if I started today, I think I might break down. But sulking will happen for the rest of the night and tomorrow I'll wake up and realize, yeah, sure, I can do something about this. I just need to actually try doing something about it.

I haven't weighed myself because my scale is completely borked. It tells me a different weight every time I go onto it, even within the same five minutes. Once second I'll have gained ten pounds, the next, because I put on a jacket, I'll have lost fifteen pounds. The poor thing is borked to all hell. It's high time we replaced it, and hopefully we will soon.

In other news, I've made it to 50 minutes on the elliptical trainer. I'm going to cap it out at an hour. I haven't done so much on the spin bike lately because I've been focusing on strength training and elliptical work. I might go for the treadmill soon, I likely won't. I guess we'll see what happens when/if I get bored of the ellipitcal trainer and weights. I'll likely go back to the spin bike as a warm up and cool down exercise more than anything after I've gotten up to my house on the elliptical.

So, I didn't post any measurements at the end of September, or August...or July. This is going to be since June and this covers October's measurements. I'll try to get my measurments done around this time next month, too.
Bust: 42
Natural Waist: 38.5
Hips: 49


That means I've lost two inches off my bust, two and a half inches off my waist, and three inches off my hips.

I think that's pretty great! Yes, I had other measurements I was tracking, too, but these are the ones that matter the most to me. I'll post the others when I feel like posting them. Ahaha.

So I weighed in today for the first time in two weeks or so. I'm in at 208.5, which is a gain of 0.5lbs. I'm not upset about this for a few reasons, one of them being that's not a bad gain after two weeks of not watching my weight. Another one being I've been going to the gym almost every day lately, so it's likely to be a little muscle gain. If it isn't, then it'll come off pretty quickly, I'm sure.

Again, it's just such a tiny gain that I can't really be mad about it. Hopefully, I can keep going down from here on out, seeing as I've been going to the gym and trying to be careful how I eat. Admittably, I do have eating issues where when I'm upset, I don't care what I eat, I just eat. I need to work on that,a lot, before I can really fix all my weight issues and I know it. Hopefully, I can get that done and over with soon.

So I finally got off my big butt and joined the gym the other day. I went for the first time with my roommate last night after she got off work. We spent the whole time in the women's room, which was small, well lit, comfortable, had a TV you could actually hear, and had the two machines I really cared about and the one she cared about. It also had some weights, but neither of us are getting into that quite so soon.

It felt pretty good to finally get some good, solid exercise in. I did a half hour on the spin bike and about ten minutes on the elliptical machine. I don't thinkt hat's so bad for my first real journey into the gym in a few years. I'm going again tonight after I pick Mik up from work and we're going to do maybe the same, if not a little bit more, this time around. I think I'll start with the elliptical machine this time and end with the bike. If I'm not too tired after this (hopefully, an hour of work), I'll go out into the main room and see if I can get my butt onto a treadmill. I doubt this will happen so soon, but I'm trying to set little mini goals for myself. My first mini goal is to be able to do half an hour on both the ellptical machine and the spin bike. I then want to add a half hour on the treadmill. Once I get this done, I might add that other, more complicated looking elliptical machine to the routine, depending on how much of a workout I'm getting from the three other machines.

This is going to take a while to work up to and I know it. And I don't want to just being doing workouts that aren't doing much for me, either. I want to build up to be able to handle higher resistance and angles on the machines so that the workouts, though they'll stay at half an hour per machine, will be good and intensive. At the same time, I'm not going to work myself to death. I stretch before hand, and I always make sure to stop before I get too tired or exhausted. I know my limits so far. Hopefully I can increase them.

And hopefully this means when I weigh in this Friday (currently weighing in on Fridays because of my work schedule), I'll have a loss to report, or at least a better feeling of fitness and wellness to report.

Once I get into better shape, I hope to join a spinning class and a yoga class at work. Right now, I want to work on stamina and getting my general fitness up before I add in the classes.

So, I haven't weighed myself. Mostly because I never really got over what I was sick with. THe stomach thing went away, but then I got hit with a massive head cold. Whatever weight I have this week, I don't think I could entirely chalk up as being accurate, even if it were lower than my last weigh in. So, I'm just going to weigh in again next week, once all the sick has filtered its way out of my body.